lies Lies LIES
Thrown at my
FACE
   Innocent wide eyes staring at you
                 Eyelashes long and curled
                              Framing chocolate brown
                                     Beautiful eyes. Windows to a deep soul.
Telling me I’m pretty/awesome/cute/wonderful/sexy
Telling me I’m really liked/loved/sweet/adorable
  Staring down my small face, watching my expression
               Lips full but not overly so
                     Curving upwards in a slight smile
                             That reassures you but really hides
                                   Doubts. Fears. Anxieties. Inhibitions.
Exchanging a grin and making me laugh and forget
Life. Death. Lies. Troubles.
Instead transforming passive amiability
                Into sunshine
                        Teeth flashing
                              Cheek-rounding
                                    Smile.
I don’t know what to believe. I don’t know what is real. I don’t know even if you really like me.
      But I want to believe.
             Understand what you see in me
                           Find what’s so fascinating
                                   Learn to love what I see as well
                                                  Less than awe-inspiring beauty.
Teach me. Show me. Love me. Hold me. Tell me. Write me. Surprise me. Understand me. Find me.
                                          So many bro
                                                              ken perceptions, thoughts, conceptions
                                                                                                                   Deceptions.
Discover and enjoy everything about me
But do not lie
                  I will cry
                            My heart will die. Shattered.


And still I face the lies.